Eleven WEEKS

We have settled into a good routine, mornings, home from work and bed time. I am not a morning person, but I have been waking up before the alarm, ready for him to suckle. I love waking him up by rubbing a ready nipple over his lips and I am happy to say he is always ready to comply. I think I am craving it more then he does. Summer is so busy, and we missed the afterwork time yesterday, I was home late and he had somewhere to be. I don't mind my mid-morning break, but I don't like having to do it when it is his turn...

I did order a manual pump. I wasn't going to and I am not planning on using it a ton, but he leaves for over nights and I think that I might like to have it then. It was recommended on ANRSpace and I got it cheap on E-Bay. I am curious to see if I get very much with it. I never did with my boys expressing at work. But expressing at work sucks. Or doesn't ? (ha, ha). I hated doing it, I hated dealing with it and I missed my baby. This is different, so maybe it will work better.

I had really expected the post activities to begin to decrease, and they have a little bit. It isn't the same, new and so stimulating, but I am still finding myself ready for him once or twice a day... So, all in all, about the same there, too. It is different somehow. Not new, but just how we are now. More like is has always been this way. Wonder if it will always?

Questions my Husband will Grow Tired of

Do my boobs look bigger?
Do they feel heavy to you?
They feel heavy to me, do you think so?
Can you tell I am not wearing a bra?
Are you ready to suckle now?

As he is suckling (I try to ask yes or no, but sometimes I forget...)
Is there milk?
Is it sweet?
Does it taste like it did with the boys?
How much is there?
Is there a lot?
Is it a good amount?
Do you want there to be more?
How long do you think it will take for more milk?
Is she empty?
Did you suckle after she was empty?

Feeling Full

I had CPR training ALL day about and hour and a half away from home for work. Since it was an all day group activity, I didn't get the chance to take care of my girls, like I normally would during the work day. Let me tell you by the time I was doing chest compressions, my girls were so big and hard, it wasn't easy! When I finally got home and peeled off my bra, the girls almost hurt. I was hoping it wasn't wishful thinking and they weren't really that full. Hubby suckled and suckled and still didn't get them completely empty before the boys were banging on the door waiting for us. It is hard to explain to the almost three year old that we really do get to spend time alone.

An hour later, I expressed big streaming squirts. It was good to know that the girls really are producing. I don't really want to delay like that, I know it will production in the long run, but it is fun to see.

a bit more

Well, here we are. Week 8. Hard to believe it has been that long...

Today I had to work, so I snuck into the bathroom with my ipod. I work where there are not a lot of staff, but there are a ton of people who come and go all day. So, at any time, people drop in to see me and they would notice if I was in the bathroom for 20 minutes! I try to time my quite time around when I don't really expect to see anyone.

I take my ipod so that I have something to listen to and it helps me mark time. I know that if I listen to a couple of songs, it hasn't been that long. I have come to really enjoy my nipples and taking this time to take care of the girls is one of my favorite parts of the day. And then today! I didn't know if my right side was ever going to stop dripping. It just kept coming and that hasn't happended before, not to this degree. It wasn't a ton of milk, but definately more. I was shocked and couldn't wait to let my husband know. I had to work late, so by the time I got home I was ready for him. They didn't hurt, I don't have that much milk, but they just felt ready. He suckled forever, we do try to make sure he suckles for awhile after the milk is gone and I kept asking, "is there still milk?". There isn't a constant flow, or really enough for a gulp, but I love to listen to him swollow. It is heaven.

Week 7

Here we are, week 7.

Not much to report, still same old, same old :) Still suckling 3x a day and hand expressing once, usually. I woke my husband up for some attention at four this morning, I hate to be awake alone. He only did one side before we both drifted back off, but that is now my favorite way to go to sleep, with him suckling. I am surprised to say that our "after" suckling activities also haven't diminished. Once a day for 7 weeks is definitely a record, for us.

Needless to say, I was hoping for more milk by now. 7 weeks. But time has gone by pretty quickly. Hubby had no idea it has been that long.